Hello there! My name is Danae and this is my personal blog. I'm an eighteen years old student who plans on majoring in graphic design. Life in Retro is a collection of my thoughts, dreams, and writings. 
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(5/24) Senior Class Picnic (5/31) Last Day of High School (6/1) Senior Class Trip (6/3) Graduation (6/15) Relay For Life Macbook Computer Planner Trip to Europe Car Dresses New eyeliner Captain America Poster Cleaning World DominationJust a few weeks ago, I was scared because everything and everyone is changing. But now…I’m so ready to be done with high school. All this pettiness, and childish thinking and people who say they’re your “friends”, when really there are only a few people you can trust. I’m sick of being discluded and left out to rot. I’m sick of being the one person out of the loop. I’ve realized that people aren’t who I thought they were….for some, this is good and others not so much. I’ve come to realize who’s worth it and who’s not.
You think you know someone, and then suddenly they prove you very wrong with their actions.
I feel slightly awful for this thinking, but I’m so happy that I no longer have to deal with these people after graduation. It’s a shame, but it wasn’t all my own doing.
Besides, I’m looking forward to being able to start fresh at college. It’s a place where no one really knows me, and there are no relationships that I have to deal with that I don’t want to. I can have a fresh, new start. A whole new me.
Three more days…
Today in AP World History, we watched Invictus. If you’ve never heard of it before, it’s about South Africa. And if you know anything about South Africa, you’d know that it was a very racially and economically segregated place up until the 1990’s. During one part, the rugby team visits a Shanty Town to teach the kids how to play rugby.
It all reminded me of a picture a friend showed in class after her venture to South Africa. It was of a few kids at a soup kitchen, but one particularly stood out to me. His shoes were so worn, you could see all of his toes sticking out of them, and they were black with soot. And yet, this kid had the most genuine smile. He just looked so happy. The fact that this child looked so happy a midst such poverty is just amazing and so inspiring to me.
Watching that part of the movie and thinking of that picture was making me tear up. And that’s when I knew I wanted to go on a mission’s trip. But, I don’t want to go to “spread the word” of God. Don’t get me wrong, I love God and I’m a Christian…but I want to do this for me. I will share God’s love through my actions. I would want a trip that involves as much volunteer work as possible, not setting-up-a-church or preaching from a soapbox. To me, that’s not what Christianity is about. I just want to help people, with my own hands. It would be the most humbling experience of my life. And at this period in my almost nineteen years, I think it is something that I need.
It’s ironic…just a few days ago, I was posting about how I wanted to get away. And now, I think I know why I feel that way. Now, I have a purpose.
He really does work in mysterious ways.
Yes. I regret the things I said, and especially the things I didn’t say. I regret the things I didn’t do, and I regret wasting my time on things and people that didn’t matter.
Ha, it’s funny: this is something that a certain guy in my class always asks me. He thinks he knows everything about relationships, when really I don’t think he has a clue. At least when it comes to me.
Because right now…I don’t really know. My heart hasn’t really settled, and I’m confused about everything. So I guess, for now, all I can tell you is that it’s still beating.
And right now, that’s all that matters.
It’s the realization of There’s got to be more out there than this. It’s a feeling of stepping out of your comfort zone into a new world…whether it’s a state or a nation away. I find myself thinking this a lot lately. And I’m having this feeling that to truly find myself, I have to get away.
I’m not talking about going down the street or to Paris so I can eat croissants and visit the Eiffel Tower and talk in snooty French. I’m talking about going out there and having an adventure, whether it be Europe, Asia, or even India. To experience new places, and to not believe, but know that the world is round.
“the most important reason for going from one place to another is to see what’s in between.” ― Norton Juster
1.) Travel The World
2.) Look people in the eye and say what I really want to say, without being afraid of myself. I wish I was more confident.
The ones for my college arn’t due until June 1st.
I’ve just gotta stop avoiding and DO THIS.
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